♥♥ Tuesday, 25 August 2009♥♥

I don't know whether I will success letting him go but I still force myself to do try it 1 more times .

Ever since tht day i realise there lots of things changed . even me in his heart also change . everyday he will shout at me and said ' CAN YOU STOP SPAMMING ME ?!' or ' CAN YOU STOP ALL YOUR NAGGING ' worse is 'STOP YOUR SARCASTIC' . Whenever I opened my mouth and speaks he will shout all this to me . As times go by I turn myself down to talk to him more and more often .

To him , he just like a hero in my life . He works "hard" everyday just to take off for my 1 mth 1 time appointment and earn money for "me" . I do alots of impossible things during pregnancy . to him those impossible things i did during tht time is natural . cause this is my duty .

I find him been too selfish and self centered . He do everything for himself only . never never thinks about others at all .

He can plan his outing or share his probs with others friends without noticing me . I will only know things when i needed in the stuation . I just found myself been stupid to be liddat . and i still let him scold like is my fault to grant his friend requests .

since he will never think or look at me seriously . why must I bothering to suffer any pain with him . He just a guy insisting he just 20s and there impossible for him to do anything . accept letting him to have whatever he want .

I WISH I WILL STOP LOOKING BACK AT HIM AND LIVE MY LIFE MYSELF .

HE JUST BRING ME BLAMES , TEARS N WORRIES . WHAT FOR ?
HE BRING HIS UNBORN DAUGHTER NOTHING .

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