♥♥ Sunday, 26 July 2009♥♥

thanks for all this while ....

thanks for ur accompany and tried .

maybe really i still thinking i'm a lil princess . or i'm too young been an adult .

today i really burst myself and wanted to leave you . you didn't hope me back our 2 - 3 months relationship . in fact today ue still letting me go as usual .

tearing is what i can do all this while . other then tht i just been useless .

One things tht make me always feel like a burden is urs tht matters of saving money .
Second is ur unhappiness . have you ever think I alway feel bad when you tell me ue unhappy with things and I will find no way to help you solve ur probs .

As I always think since Jerxanne life is I give de . Since I wants Jerxanne to be out to this world . why are you here acting ue loves her exist . I remember clearly you ever doubt is she urs . then why are ue back to make me so miserable again .

Everytime yyou leave i will be crying badly alone . do you ever feel it ? I confuse with my own decision even judgment .

Jerxanne come out will make you feel worse ?

Does you try to give what I want ? I nv think for you or you don't treat me as a girl actually ?

I just want a prefect maternity period and a normal basic wedding . Am I asking too much ?

Diamond ring ? Gold ring ? I insisted ?. if you really poor until only can use a grass fold out de ring give me as a engagement ring . I still will accept least you do all your best to force up . but what actually ue do ? what urs matters is I can't afford to give . So I don't give you.

When I was a lil girl like everyone wishing my boy buy me couple lab ring . he said i rather buy ue a diamond ring . now i'm a lil girl who expected a diamond or gold ring to be mhy wedding ring . he said i demanding too much .

I really doubting whatever you try . i really see nothing .

Yes, maybe right now ue falling . you need my hand but i never give . Do you ever think everything also because you said you try you try but actually ue never try de . this is 1 time i never forget , because ur whole family is this ways .

when I fall down ue isn't tht one who give me a hand too . in fact you are tht one who bring me to the trap and pushed me down .

Stand up yourself and you will found out I leave you and I will change myself to be another you never know de . I will love you and miss you but I will never find my way to you anymore . because i knew you won't too .

TAKE CARE ...

*ONCE YOU LET IT GO THERE NO WAY TO GRAB BACK .

i always wish you will pull me back and hug me tight and said i isn't a burden of urs .

aversionLADY