♥♥ Monday, 4 May 2009♥♥

When you found this blog , I already let my hearts die . You are a man tht i can date with but not a man tht lead me to future .

your 1 sentence save you everythings . But left me with no ways .

yes , other girl can sacrifice because of love why can't I ?
cause people boyfriend can treat they own girlfriend good when there realise they pregnant accept me ! . why can't you like other show me the happiness you have when you received my news ? the first moment of encouraging you didn't give me .

ONCE I PREGNANT MY FUTURE IS RUIN ! . DO YOU EVER THINK FOR ME ? THINK FOR MY FUTURE ? ARE YOU GOING TO SUPPORT ME ? NO YOU NEVER , WON'T ! . telling me you will give me $5o0 as my monthly money is not enfu for . I working like a maid yet i get such paid only . I'M JUST 18 YEARS OLD YET I MUST LIKE A AUNTIE HIDE MYSELF AT HOME AND DO ALL THOSE HOUSE WORK PLUS BUYING FOOD FOR DINNER USING MY 500 ?! .

I DIN'T ASK FOR GOOD WEDDING ( WEDDING PHOTO , CHINESE WEDDING OR WEARING AS A BRIDE ) BUT A GOOD TIMES WHEN I PREGNANT AND AFTER THT 1 MOTHS (CONFINEMENT PERIOD) is it hard ? YES , IT HARD . CAUSE YOU CAN'T AFFORD TO PAY ):

"JOKER !! , bring back more then 1k a month can't afford to give me a private doctor . confinement is waste of money too . LOLS . everything to for me is WASTE OF MONEY . We shld save for baby ! . JOKERS "

YES , I SERVE MY RIGHT TO LET YOU PARENTS SCOLD I WORSE THEN A PROSITUTE AND THEY WILLING TO GIVE THT $200 OF HIS TO A GEYLANG PROSITUTE THEN ME . YES , 20K ... I OFFERING 20K . WHY NOT 20K ? RESPONSIBLE CAN YOU GIVE ? BY SAYING SO WHAT YOU WANT ON THE VERY 1ST MOMENT YOU KNOW IM PREGNANT AND LET UR PARENT COME AND ASK ME SO WHAT I WANT TO DO SINCE I'M PREGNANT IS RESPONSIBLE ? LOLS . DID YOU GIVE MY PARENTS EXPLAINATION ? IN FACT YOU WAITING FOR ME TO GIVE UR PARENTS THT EXPLANATION .

" Why did i demand 20k ?
Cause he said I dun worth 10K . if marriage my parents can't get a 10k as a thankness for them to feed me till so big . and more RESPONSIBLE he can't afford to give . noo is he dunno how to give . cos dunno what i want . LOLS . of cos I want his concern , caring and talk to me nicely . but he nv . simply can see he can't give me basic resposible . even my doctor fee . LOLS . must wait for him to get pay then can bring me go see doc . nevermindd . next is must go poly there as for transfer to hospital for scanning . LMAOS . next is if i want abortion , get me a private doctor(PRIVATE CLINIC) for abortion . LOLS . scanning n give birth cannot get a private doctor must get a private doctor but abortion can . LOLS . of cos abortion is more cheaper if at clinic but more expensive at hospital .
i'm notting .. if care for me shld get me a hospital then ... HAHAHAS

WORSE IS I CAN'T CHOOSE THE PLACE SINCE IS THEY PAY . LoL

until now i since no reason for me keep contacting you .. consistant asking you for reply is becos i need it alot . why can't you understand the pain of been laugh by others . I'm a young mother and more is not married .

I once collapsed .. and consistant get tired of what i have now . I simply get my interest off from study again . No point i study for so hard . MY FUTURE IS RUIN . ur company can let you continue study DEGREE but me ? I'm a person who stop my study when i studing in ITE . what is NITEC CERT ? is nothing . a piece of cake ! . spare me ... your family(include you) insult me n baby make me collapsed once .. having this baby change my life ... everything change ...

LOVES IS NOTHING TO ME NOW .... NO LONGER A THINGS TO ME .... I WILL TEARS WHEN YOU BACK AND GONE .... I WILL WORRY IF YOU GONE ARE FOR LIFE OR AWHILE .... MY INSISTANT WILL LET BOTH OF US HAVE OUR OWN PATH . FOR MY VIEW IF I FOLLOW UR PATH I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY ENFU .

I JUST GETTING ABIT OF WHAT I SHLD GET .... BUT YOU CAN STAY CALM AND SHOUT TO ME LOUD N CLEAR I NOT CAPABLE TO GIVE YOU .

I'M TO TIRED TO LET YOU KNOW HOW MANY THINGS I WORRY AND WAITING FOR .... YOU ARE THE GREATEST PAIN IN MY LIFE .... WHAT YOU LEFT WILL ALWAY FOLLOW ME TILL THE END ....

NEVER COME BACK WHEN YOU CAN'T GIVE ME ANY HAPPINESS .

WE JUST LIKE PLAYING PASSING BALLOON GAME
BABY IS JUST LIKE A GROWING BALLOON .
WHEN TIME UP BALLOON WILL BURST
AND WE WILL FACE THE FACTS
THT THE GAME HAVE END
IS EITHER WE WILL STAY TOGETHER OR I WILL CARRY THIS BURDEN REST OF MY LIFE .

aversionLADY