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♥♥ Tuesday, 5 May 2009♥♥

suddenly i got the edge to cry again . this like been continues for months . ever since we broke up . I will think baack ... "OUR" past . "HIS" words and everythings .

i tell myself i no need him anymore ... but why am i still like this ? Maybe I'm tht one who really don't understand me myself .

i'm really tired of everything . i can feel tht i give up myself . I'm totally give up myself . Until now I still don't what shld I do . Is right for me . for the baby . for everyone around me . I really get so sick of everything . YES , im acting strong . Can I don't ? my happiness , future and everythings is in my hand whether i going to ruin it or have it . is my choose . I want happiness . I want to get my ASS off from such life . I want a better life ...

DID I DEMAND REALLY THT MUCH ? CAN ANYONE EXCEPT HIM TO TELL ME .

or IS THE RIGHT CHOOICE FOR ME TO LIFE LIKE THIS .... I REALLY FEELING SO ENVY AND JEALOUS ON SHORT GUN MARRIAGE WOMEN .

I CRYING SO BADLY WHO KNOW ? WHO WILL GIVE ME THT EARS I NEEDED LOTS ... I NEED A GOOD LISTENING EARS AND ADVISE .

I'M DAMN AFRAID BABY WILL BORN HIS BIRTHDAY THT DAY . IF I GOING TO HAVE MY LIFE WITHOUT HIM . I NOT GOING TO REMEMBER HIM ANYMORE .

he is a man tht let me go wild
and he is the man tht hurts me most deep
his hurt will cover all his good point .

i shall have my chance again to see baby again. :D . i shall post baby's pic if it clear enfu to see


aversionLADY